Day 20: don't give a shit
Day 20:
Day 20: there comes a point in a long journey where there is a need to stop and sit on the side of the road and shout angrily into clenched fists.
That time is right now. I haven't gone far - Warton north of Carnforth. Why? I checked my bank balance and realised I'm running out of money. I'm laid off so there are no more payslips. The savings are almost gone. Next month there will be nothing. I look, smell and will soon be living like a tramp. I'm making a start on that by drinking at least 2 ciders at the George Washington. What do I do? Do I use what I have left to get home? Do I carry on and go for broke? Which side effect do I want: financial ruin or the crushing failure to complete Lejog? I will not be able to live easily with either. So I'm going to have another pint. At least then I won't care. Will I make it to Kendal? Right now I don't give a shit.
DAY 21
That time is right now. I haven't gone far - Warton north of Carnforth. Why? I checked my bank balance and realised I'm running out of money. I'm laid off so there are no more payslips. The savings are almost gone. Next month there will be nothing. I look, smell and will soon be living like a tramp. I'm making a start on that by drinking at least 2 ciders at the George Washington. What do I do? Do I use what I have left to get home? Do I carry on and go for broke? Which side effect do I want: financial ruin or the crushing failure to complete Lejog? I will not be able to live easily with either. So I'm going to have another pint. At least then I won't care. Will I make it to Kendal? Right now I don't give a shit.
DAY 21
A note about the blog
I must be the only LEJOGer without a smart phone. This means I don't have the ability to update this blog when I'm on the trail. My support team back home kindly offered to update the blog for me, so this will be communicated by text message and written up on my behalf. It will therefore be brief and without photos. I will expand on this when I get back from my journal entries, dictaphone recordings and photo journal. The detailed account will be published as a book which will be available on Amazon.
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